March 2012
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Hanging out with indie film people helps me feel better about myself
Other person: So what are you? An actress?
Me: I’m a writer.
Other person: Really?! You look like an actress.
Me: :3
And I’ve heard this a couple of times. Considering how I feel about myself most of the time, it’s really nice to have people say such positive things.
Although, now that I think about it,...
Conversations in India #3
Relatives: "You're so tall!"
Me: *just stands there being not quite 5'4"*
March the First
How does a year pass so quickly?
I can’t believe this was nearly a year ago.
Also on my birthday last year, my cousin was here. The one who got married last month. He had no idea then that in less than a month, he would be married.
We had no idea we’d be getting a lovely sister-in-law.
I’ve changed so much since then. I feel like it’s for the better. I hope it’s...
February 2012
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Not ready to come back :(
There are things I miss about home, of course, but 2 weeks is way too short :(
And now that I figured out I can access my cousin’s Internet from my flat, I don’t even miss that (in the rare moments that I’m not running around and busy).
It was really sad when my uncle went back to go to Dubai…this is the first time in 10 years that all of us have been together - the...
Conversations in India #2
Me: I think our cousins ruined Indian guys for me.
Aditi: Because they're so awkward?
Me: Because they're so amazing!!
Aditi: *thinks a moment* You know, you're right...
Conversations in India #1
Everyone: You never eat anything!
Me: *stares with food in my mouth*
I'm married?
I was talking to my Korean teacher after class and she asked, “Is your husband here?”
Confused, I replied, “Husband? I’m not married.”
Now she looked confused and said, “Robert-sshi?”
Robert being one of the guys in the class.
“We aren’t married,” I said quickly.
I still can’t stop laughing when I think about it. I’m...
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January 2012
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WatchEveryday while going to work.
The flickering was my doing because I wondered what that button was for :P but the constant focusing is so annoying.
Edit: Although, usually the train comes too fast for me to whip my phone out and film it. It came strangely slowly today.
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“You seem to have talent for languages.”
– My Korean teacher (오선생님)
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Today is just one of those days, I guess.
Everything has gone wrong since I first woke up. I’m the type of person who will be angry/upset/depressed for a bit (other than when I’m actually, legitimately depressed) and then get over it pretty soon with some sort of positive outlook. But today, every time I’ve found a positive side, something else has come along and slapped me in the face.
So…I have my laptop on the...
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December 2011
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Au Revoir, 2011
I don’t know where to begin even thinking about 2011. This has honestly been the shortest year of my life - so short I almost feel as though I skipped it completely, and yet so much happened.
I went through some of my old posts and journal entries (click images for original posts):
I can’t imagine a better way to start off the new year. The movie was fantastic (even if it...
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The Lucky Ones
I usually try to do everything on my own. The truth is, I really don’t know how to ask for help. I keep what I’m doing under wraps and only speak up when its success is confirmed. Now I finally understand why: fear and pride. Even if I’ve told myself otherwise, I’ve been afraid of failing and embarrassing myself, thus wounding my pride.
I have moments when I’m...
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Daikirai na Boku, juu-kyuu sai
A rough translation is: “I hate myself, 19 years old.” I can’t remember the last time I heard the Suga Shikao song “19sai” before it came up on shuffle recently. I remember identifying with the lyrics at 19, but the funny thing is, I was happiest then. In the latter half of 19, that is, and the first half of 20.
Despite having been diagnosed with SAD (seasonal...
November 2011
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my family, from my parents+sister to all of my aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents
my friends, from three surrogate sisters, to my best friend/jeevansaathi, to my live pjs, to every single friend I have (whether we have a fun nickname for each other or not)
good health, in everyone I care about and in myself
never wanting for anything
having so many amazing opportunities to achieve my...
The awkward moment when shopping with your fiance...
awkwardbollywood:
and she introduces you to her husband,
making you both really confused…
and then her husband reveals that his wife is a doctor and that your friend only has a few days to live…
and you realize that not is he dying, but he lied about being married and has been in love with you this whole time…
what. the. fucking. fuck.
Favorite movie :)
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Something amazing happened today.
I can’t say more than that here, but yay! Everything is finally coming together :)
Me right now:
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Three Things I Need
A passport.
An fBI background check.
My diploma
I have a passport.
I don’t have the “NO RECORD” result from my background check yet, even though it’s been over 6 weeks.
Apparently it takes 3-6 months for me to get my diploma. It’s been 3 months now. I can’t wait another 3 months when I would like this to begin in February :(
I really want this to work out...
October 2011
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The Tyranny of Should
As I’m writing my Psychology paper, I am looking up some of the things that I am writing about to see if I could find anything interesting about them online. I stumbled upon this and found it very powerful and I just needed to share it.
I’d never really thought about this before. Wow.
An excerpt:
Should is a judge. It’s...
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Anger
“Holding onto anger is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die.” - Buddha
I came across that quote on Tumblr and wrote it on a Post-It and put it on my MacBook so I can see it everyday and remember. I’m trying to remember it right now, but it’s hard. There are few things worse than being angry on behalf of someone you care about - particularly when...
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WHAT a Weekend
Getting that email about the Palo Alto International Film Festival was a stroke of fate. Destiny. Or maybe it was just a door that opened for me. Boy, am I glad I walked through. I actually wish I’d found out about the film festival earlier so I could have put in even more volunteer hours (lack of publicity is one of my few criticisms). I found out about it, promptly signed up to...
September 2011
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Happy Birthday, Aditi ♥
My baby sister is seventeen today. Seventeen. There’s an Archie comic I read for the first time when I was twelve or thirteen. Archie was seventeen and he was depressed about it. He was more than halfway through his teen years and he wondered what there was to look forward to after the teen years. I remember being relieved that I was in the early stages of my teen years.
I’m 22 now...
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August 2011
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Toastmasters
I had forgotten how amazing it is and how much I love it. For anyone who ever gets the opportunity to go, GO!!!!!!
I went to the meeting last night. It was the Humorous Speech Contest and, remembering how funny the speeches really are, I decided to go and watch them. I stepped into the room after years of not attending a meeting and was immediately greeted warmly by all the members who had been...
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I hate California.
I never thought it would happen. I spent my entire life thinking that I would never want to live anywhere but here. Not anymore. I feel stifled here. I just want to get out - out of California, out of the U.S. I need a change of a scene and a change of pace.
I hope this pans out soon. I hope that in a month or so, I’ll be out. I’m supposed to promise that I won’t be gone for...
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That's it. I'm so sick of not being able to get...
Stupid phone service, let me make international calls :c
Well, it’s okay. I’m buying Skype credit and calling them from Skype on Monday. I need to know. And I need to be there as soon as possible.
I am so sick of being here where everything is so…trite, lethargic, uneventful. I am more than ready for this new adventure. I know without a shadow of a doubt that I should be there.